HEARTACHE

Heartache....I have much heartache in my life at this moment in my life, but the heartache I am writing about today has nothing to do with me.  A close friend of mine suffered a miscarriage last September.  She has a 4 year old little man and was hoping for that little girl.  So needless to say, when she found out she was pregnant, she was more than thrilled.  She told us of her pregnancy by putting a shirt on her little boy that said "Does this shirt make me look like a big brother?"  It was so adorable.  This little boy has been such a ray of sunshine in my life.  He was the ring bearer in my wedding as well as I spend all summer long with him out at the lake.  He is so stinking cute and I love him like my own family.  He is one of the most beautiful/handsome/cutest children I have come across in my life, so when I heard the news that my friend was expecting again, I could only imagine the beautiful child she would have this time around.  When she was pregnant with her little boy they waited until after her first trimester before they told anyone, because she was in her middle 30s and she feared miscarriage.  But this time, she had an ultrasound and saw the baby so they felt comfortable telling us.  I believe she was 10 weeks when the heartbeat was no longer there.

Last night I sent her a text message to have her wish her little man a "Happy Birthday!"  We text back and forth for a bit.  I asked her how things were going and she texted back that things were a bit rough because her dad is in the hospital and tomorrow (March 15th) was her scheduled C-section date.  Instant HEARTACHE!!!!  My heart broke for her because I know exactly how she feels.  May 22nd is my "black" day.  That was my due date and I will forever have that day engraved in my mind.  We text back and forth a couple more times, mostly me making sure she knew that she can turn to me anytime!!

All day today I have thought about her and my heart ached for her.  I know the pain she is suffering.  I know the constant mind tricks of thinking that you have no right to feel this blue over a day, etc..... I honestly could go on and on.  So today I have said many little prayers for her.

I challenge you to find a person in your life that causes you HEARTACHE and say a prayer for them.  Reach out to them and let them know you are there for them.  You never know what kind of effect you may have on them.